i hate everything bout u..

every time we like awake

after every hit we take

every feeling that i get

but i havent miss u yet

every roommate we kept awake

by every sigh and scream we make

all the feelings that i get

but i still dont miss u yet

ONLY WHEN I STOP TO THINK BOUT IT

i hate everything about u

why do i love u

i hate everything about u

why do i love u

pieces

every pieces have to fit to make evrything fine

but when the pieces just dnt fit,

what shud we do?

shud we throw it away??

but u knw u juz cant..

coz tat piece is a part of u,

what makes u , U ,

so what now??

what to do with the piece that juz dnt fit anywhere??

::: I'M HOLDING ON TO THE PIECES THAT JUZ DONT FIT:::

stupid is ME

it is so close i cud actually sees it, touch it, taste it but i blew it all away !!!!

being stupid is one my greatest talent !!

i never once miss doin stupid things that wud end up ruining my life..

so i dnt really have any 1 or anything to blame but me !!

so basically stupid is ME !!

25 !!!!

how u feeling??

: uishhhhhhh~

ur 25 !!!!!!!

: damnnnnn~

looking good?

: hell yeahhh~ ppl mistakenly thought im 19.hehehe :P

kahwin???

: urmmmmmmmm~ no thnx :P

:::sengalnesssss mode on !! :::

twilight years??

it has been a while...waaaayyyyyyyyy to long since i done this,
since like twilight years ago..
its not tat i forgot bout tis place.
i guess i was juz bz??
bz doin wat??
mourning my sad sad life??
or maybe bz mending my broken broken life??
well i guess both of it..

2009 has gone..come new year..
cant really say "new" at tis point.
but wat the heck...it is new..
for me..everything sort of new
new friends,new people,new job,new tis,new tat.
but new always gonna be fading away.
faded n worn out.

hurmmmm

it gets uglier

u think im a psycho?yeah i am!!
who wudnt be psycho leading a life like this??
i have been trying so hard to get a grip over the years but yet it slips...
my childhood its a nitemare..
my family...well i knw ppl wud say "u shud consider urself lucky..got other ppl who are unfortunate"
easier said than done!!
no one knws the real thing..
no one cud never understand..
making judgement about me is all other ppl can do..
u dnt knw the real stuff..
u dnt knw the pain that i've been thru..
not juz the thing that happens to me recently...
but all of it..
i've been a fighting battle that i dnt knw wether i cud win..
coz it juz gets uglier n uglier...
its hard to keep the sanity intact...
but yet i am trying hard...
i guess if u think im a psycho...than what to do...
carry on...coz u will never understand!!

n.u.m.b?????

there's a saying "when u in too much pain,eventually u'll become so use to it..the feeling become so familiar...then u'll felt nothing but numbness"....huh!!that's all crap!!!total bullshits!!
the truth is..there's no such thing as numbness in the pain department....except if on physical pain..can always use drugs to make the pain go away..but this kind of pain???aint gona go away that easy...aint gonna go to numbness stage..no drugs in this world cud make it go away!!!in fact it will stays...lingers....torment..torture..........the list went on n on!!!!!!!!!!
ARGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! dammmnnn!!!! :(